In my lonley and self imposed fortress of darkness.
Wrapped in a foggy cocoon, playing inner cine films of you.
In a large empty theatre for one.
Talking to you of how lost that I feel
Listening and knowing all your replies. making new deals as I stare up at the night sky.
Wishing for just one more day spent with you.
To just watch the clouds maybe share a drink or two.
Dancing to pink and taking you home
Then waking and knowing I’m still here
Without the madness of my random best friend
Knowing I must go on get a grip and not spend.
Days fretting without you I have no choice but to be strong
Knowing your still.beside me
Knowing what you would say
You’d give me a row
For loosing my way
And so now I have
found the courage to lite a candle within myself.
Embracing the shadows asking for enlightenment.
In the darkness of grief I found my true self.
I was not completly lost.
For the flickering of the returning light.