I hate cancer with a passion . Anyone who moans and complains about mundane worldly things drag yourself away from their phone and should go and take themselves to sit in a chemotherapy waiting room for a hour.
Don’t get me wrong spotted soon enough before and mets chemotherapy works pretty well although going through it sickness, hair loss, wearing a cold cap to prevent hair loss, itching insomnia the list goes on, is something no one should endure.
How haven’t we found a cure yet?
Wasting money on weapons and wars. But I guess that the money drug companies make from cancer it isn’t worth their while to find a cure.
I’ve worked as a soul midwife (end of life care) for quite some years and initially I would see different illnesses but now I’d say 95% is cancer.
It’s like a mass clearing of humanity and it breaks my heart.
So much has changed over the last twenty five years. Technology mobile phones, computers, microwaves, sugar is in everything, processed foods. Consumption of meat coming from animals injected with chemicals Something has to change. Spiritually people are starting to.awaken but not enough this world is without doubt addicted to distraction. People are becoming less and less connected with each other.
Look up from your screens and start to question the world we live in.
Start small. Start with yourself
I watch her smile at our grand daughter.
Struggling to hold her beside her as she lies in bed.
Her daughter Sarah and my son Michaels baby.
She and I have been best friends since they were children.
My random friend
Questions like could we keep a penguin in the bath?
The kind of friends that know each other well.
Our likes and dislikes
We laugh at the same things
Don’t get me wrong we have had our disagreements.
But when push came to shove we both knew we could always depend on the other.
We would joke about riding on old people scooters
I always hoped that Sarah and Mike would get together.
I loved Donna’s kids like my own.
And last year my meddling worked.
Not how I would have planned it but here we are.
And it is what it is.
You see we hadn’t seen each other for awhile we had texted but not seen each other for a year.
I work as a soulmidwife.
Companion to terminally ill.
On my way out of the hospital ward I was visiting I saw her there Donna.
Admitted with pain she had suffered with for awhile.
She had text and bllamed it on work, pushing wheel chairs lifting patients
But after two weeks she was diagnosed.
We fell back into step. Like we had never been apart.
We met the week after in the park engineered to have mike and Sarah with us.
Eighteen months later they are together.
We have Emilia our beautiful grand daughter.
She is the positive light that has kept Donna fighting.
Two rounds of chemotherapy she has been amazing.
I’m in awe of how brave she is.
Two months ago we flew to Corfu.
I stood on the deck of a boat watched as she swam in the bluest of seas warm sun.
White sands her long black hair shining
She was so happy
We visited old Corfu town, sat in small seafood restaurants by the sea.
Drank cocktails. Laughed danced and sang.
We didn’t speak of cancer.
What a difference two months can make.
This is my job I deal with it all the time.
There isn’t anything I can’t deal with
I don’t want to deal with this
For a month she has been complaining of pain in her liver. Twice admitted
Jaundice, codine, oramorph.
I stayed over with her last night
Eyes yellow tired and scared.
Reassured her that no matter what I’m there
I promise I’m by her side.
I promise her that her sister and I will look after the kids.
I will love Emilia enough for both of us.
I will help her make memory boxes
Write birthday cards, graduation wedding, and letters.
Of course I will. I love her.
I hold her hand in mine.
She falls asleep against me.
As she sleeps I feel her breathing rise and fall
Her hair is damp from my tears.
I pull the covers around her kiss her gently
Visualise myself watching her swim and smile in the blue sea
On our next holiday in the sun